Silent Heart

The Hardest Topic is the World

2009-07-31T09:51:00.000-07:00

Well, since someone is letting the blog to rot, I will update something here. Love. Yes, the hardest topic in the world. Harder than marketing, control system or multi variable calculus. Before that, I would tell you the experience in my impromptu speech which is the topic of 'What Does Love Means to You?' The points I used (borrowed from my friend) is 'Love makes you committed to another', 'love makes you think about someone', and 'love is like a drug'. Well, it is a nature of human to love someone and to make babies so that humans can continue their heir or something like that. But nowadays humans are getting more and more, you think we need more humans? Another source of importance of love is love is a source of self actualization. According to Maslow, in his hierarchy of needs, Love is put at Number Three. Number one would be physiological needs, second safety, fourth self esteem and finally self actualization. Meaning someone who is successful like Bill Gates, Tun Dr. Mahathir, Nicole Anne David, and such, they too have someone to love (this may include family). Back to the topic, why love is so hard, because it is hard to find the perfect partner. And if you have found one (I will refer it to her), you need to adapt to her and think what she is thinking. You need to act according to her needs and make her happy. Never mind about that, you need to spend time with her, celebrate her birthday, the anniversary of courting, anniversary of first date, anniversary of first kiss, Valentine and a few other festivities that you never heard existed. But in the end, all you want is to know that she is your and only yours to be loved, pampered and taken care of. And when she is happy, you are happy. But sometimes this is not the case. Some guys do have the ego and supernatural ability to be stuborn. Well, she maybe your's but if you never take care about her, never make her happy, never make her gifts, never spend the time with her, might as well give it up. You have taken things for granted. You are not in love in her. Some people even find lover for the sake of finding a lover. Well, this matter cannot be put to the blame on guys totally. Sometimes people are busy with career and education. It has to be put to balance too. What is important is to communicate and to trust each other. This is when the hard part comes. As the word taken for granted is a very powerful word. It will make any relationship break down. Less communication means less understanding. What kind of love need not understanding? Unless you have a super power in reading body language and even body language is a type of communication. Trusting each other is also important to keep the bond together. With so many branches and constrains, in my opinion, Love is the hardest topic in the world.

100 truths

2009-04-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

001. Real Name: Tan She Wern

002. Nickname(s): Victoria

003. Age: 20++

004. Horoscope: Cancer

005. Male or Female: female

006. Elementary : erm... hua lian kindergarten

007. Middle School: Hua lian 3

008. High School: Treacher methodist girls school

009. College School: Utm

010. Hair colour: Black n brown ??

011. Long or Short: i think its short

012. Loud or Quiet: loud

013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.

014. Phone or Camera: Phone

015. Health Freak: Nope~

016. Drink or Smoke: Social Drinker

017. Do you have a crush on someone: hehe... i think so~

018. Eat or Drink: Eat

019. Piercings: 4

020. Tattoos: None

021. Social or Anti-Social: social

022. Righty or lefty: both... weird i think....

023. First piercing: forgotten

024. First relationship: hehe... secret

025. First Best Friend: leong sei yei

026. First Award: Skip

027. First Kiss: V my x bf~

028. First Pet: Dog

029. First Big Vacation: China?

030. First Love at first sight: skip

031. First Big Birthday: 18th birthday

032. First Surgery: -

033. First sport you joined: badminton

034. Orange or Apple juice: apple

035. Rock or Rap: Rock

036. Country or Screamo: country

037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: backstreet boys

038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: britney spears

039. Night or Day: Night.

040. Sun or Moon: star!!! hehe

041. TV or Internet: Internet

042. Playstation or xbox: Never played any before.

043. Kiss or hug: both.. naughty me~

044. Iguana or turtle: Both are disgusting.

045. Spider or bee: Bee

046. Fall or spring: haha, prefer spring

047. Limewire or iTunes : Never use

048. Soccer or baseball: Don't sports.

049. Eating: any

050. Drinking: any

051. Excitement level: roller coaster

052. I'm about to: preparing for last final paper-pk

053. Listening to: right round-flo rida

054. Plan for today: sleeping. like a pig~

055. Waiting for: last paper finish

056. Energy Level: high..lol

057. Thinking of someone: Jack, cz jt receive a msg frm him~

058. Want kids?: yup... for sure

059. Want to get married?: sure...

060. When?: wah~ same v kh's... 28th, no before or after. except accident la~ ah hem

061. How many kids do you want: 2... 1 guy 1 girl... perfect~

062. Any name on the mind: khin hooi!!!

063. What do you want to do: hehe~ goning bek tpg after my final

065. Mellow future or wild: skip

066. Something you would never try: secret

067. When do you want to die: as long as possible

068. Lips or Eyes: lips

069. Romantic or Funny?: romantic...

070. Shorter or Taller?: haha... average i think, sure wan becum taller

071. Protective or Caring?: protective~

072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: romantic!!!

073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: haha~ no comment~

074. Sensitive or Loud?: Sensitive.

075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship.

076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: trouble maker i think~

077. Muscular or normal: Normal.

078. Kissed a stranger: erm.... erm.... no kua~

079. Broken a bone: No.

080. Lost glasses or contacts: No.

081. Ran away from home: NEVER

082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: No.

083. Killed somebody: skip

084. Broken some one's heart: yes.... sad story... haiz

085. Had your heart broken: yup

086. Been arrested: K2!!! tot i'm MIC.. haiz..

087. Cried when someone died: Yup... my grandma~

088. Liked a friend more than a friend: no idea

089. Yourself: myself? i like 2 be myself~

090. Miracles: skip

091. Love at first sight: erm~ 4 me feeling is everytin.

092. Heaven: skip

093. Santa Claus: skip

094. Tooth Fairy: skip

095. Kiss in the first date: Hahahahahhaha~ secret

096. Angels: fake!!!

097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : unless he told me this~

098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : yes....

099. Do you believe in God? : ang kong consider as god ma? hahahaha~~

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people

Skipping class

2009-04-09T20:46:00.000-07:00

i skipped Advance accounting class on wed due preparing for my perkembangan kendiri test 1. it was the 1st time i skipped her class. As a result, my coursemate call me early in the morning and said, "pn nik wanna deduct who's absence today, 5 marks." omg... its so unfair for us who din go 2 her class, all the chinese and 50% of malays. Damn... i wrote an apologize letter 2 her at last. ppl who noe me well noe i wont do this kind of stuff. but 5 marks really means a lot to me.I hv got no choice. Who ask me so lazy? f...

Sorry, I love you

2009-04-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

I can’t stand the situation right now… I kenot face him since dat incident, I noe it’s the same to him… sudd think of this song frm Leona Lewis—better in time… suit my mood right now.

"Better In Time"

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

I like you more than everything, but…. What u had done to me?
It’s the end of our story,
Nicholas, thanks for your love….
Sorry, I love you.

The Difference Between Love & Like

2009-03-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you like, you get happy
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter
If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile
In front of the person you love,
you can't say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can
In front of the person you love, you tend to shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your own self
The person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting
The feeling of love starts from the eye
and the feeling of like starts from the ear
So if you stop liking a person you used to like,
all you need to do is to cover your ears
But if you try to close your eyes,
Love turn into a drop of tear and remains in your heart.
Forever after.

malacca trip

2009-03-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

Date: 13-15 mac 2009
Place: Masjid tanah, mlc.
Purpose: Business communication assignment (lawatan sambil belajar KONONYA)

Failed to upload the pictures...

We went 2 malacca last friday to sunday. It was really a terrible, horrible and vegetable trip. When I 1st c the chalet, I almost fainted... dats also call resort huh? like lokap... its much more terrible than wat i imagined... Disappointed!!!! i was wondering y the group of accomodation still can paid the deposit to them. The rooms r dirty, small, still got lots of unknown insect... haiz.... speechless~ Makes me hate malacca jor tim... 1st day after "check-in" ( no reception counter also), we went 2 ladang satelit, but its actually not dat type of satelit, but plants n animals. like zoo.... hehehe.... at nite was the happiest moment during the trip, we went 2 jonker street havin our dinner n for a shop. I luv the cendol there.... yummy~

day 2-
outdoor activities at the dirty beach... i did enjoy the game actually. thanks to Ain bearing my bad temper... the breakfast was sucks, although i'm the ajk for foods. haha.... after dat we went 2 the IKS of cakes n cacing. The cacing IKS really makes me vomit. As a result, me n elaine was sleeping inside the bus v the bus driver. haha.... really cant stand the smell.... the nite we bbq 2gether at the beach there... I did enjoy the nite v my classmate.

day3-
the happiest day!!! caz we gonna leave the kns chalet 4eva.. i told myself not goin there anymore~ after check out went 2 those mlc famost place, but due we r too boring, so we go 4 a shop at pahlawan mall. after dat we bek 2 k2 @ 5pm...

but... i will never join those class programme again!!! really cant stand... haha...

-she wern-

A Moment to Remember

2009-03-07T09:55:00.000-08:00

First of all, thanks to Shewern for accompanying me to Times Square to watch this magnificent movie.

We went to TS for lunch at the Hartz. My stomach came out full to the rim.

Then, we watched this movie called Marley and Me. Towards the end of the movie, I burst into tears. Just an ordinary movie could make me cry.

I truly recommend this movie to all.

And we went for a drink at Starbucks Cafe. So much for boycotting the American product.

The Java Chips. Delicious, make me can't sleep now.

A table trick, making a rose out of napkins. Hehe.

Shewern and I.

And at the end of the day, I bought two books, and a new shirt from ROMP. No thanks to Shewern. Haha. She bought a new specs too. Looks nice and fancy.

Khinhooi

Loving Couples

2009-02-19T13:05:00.000-08:00

Loving couples could be the most sweet thing on Earth but at the same time, it can be the most taboo thing. Loving couple are like a type of blessing. They bless each other, they care for each other, they cherish each other, they love each other. When the other side are sad, they are sad too, when the other side is mad, they are mad too. So I could say it is the most sweet thing on Earth. Unfortunately, humans are built in such a way, the moments will never last forever. When there are misunderstanding, when there are grudge, when there are delusion, it is that when it happened. One body becomes two. To tell the truth, I am really afraid to see this type of moments. I am phobic with it. I will become emotionally unstable. Especially to the loving couple I bless. Bare in mind, if you care for the other side like the world is going to end tomorrow, you should show it. Take step back and ponder. Being the other side too cannot be too stone headed. Think of the other side. Think of each other. This is how long lasting love was built.

Movie day

2009-01-21T08:02:00.000-08:00

21/1/2009-11.11pm
A fantastic movie day until both of us r sleeping in da cinema!!! Pk class cancel due 2 the stupid ceramah at dewan besar~ we r so hardworking student for sure we wont attd. Went 2 “mian dui mian” @ genting klang havin our lunch. After dat straight away go 2 t.s 4 a movie~ since most of the movie we watched b4 jor, then we just choose the “all bot woman” from zhou xun. As a result both of us were slping til the end of the movie…. Paying 7 bucks n sleeping in da cinema + enjoying the cool air-cond~ not bad… 2day was the last class before I bek 4 celebrating my cny. Happy cny 2009!!!

Sungei Wang 2009 Countdown Photo Shots

2009-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

From the main post here

Spraying madness, everyone in the streets are 99% will get the spray

Street was filled with people, jam and packed

All the way from the cross road to Sungei Wang Fiesta Street

Jam jam jam, careful of your belongings

You got shampoo on your head, literally

Nice show but too short though

Even the overhead bridge was filled with people

Those who parked there will be a victim

Spraying madness

After the count

Street filled with empty cans

But the street is still full

Full up to the Pavilion

home sweet home

2008-11-25T23:58:00.000-08:00

hmmn... at last... finish the final exam jor!!! the last paper, audit!!! hehe... after the exam straight away go 2 times square v elaine, siok min n hooi bein. we did enjoy it, but we r too tired jor~ hehehe.... dat night we playing the millionair n dringking in my room. wat a big contrast~ lol.... at last i becum the winner~ hehe.. now shaking leg at home jor lo~ take care of my bb~

dats her picture~ cute?? hehehe, actually i desire 2 5 a job during the holiday.. but still lazy 2 go n 5 it~ just enjoy 1st la~hehehe~~

Blood Vomiting Day

2008-11-21T17:38:00.000-08:00

The Self Development grade has come out. And it was shocking to me at first. I got a freaking B+. As if I never got a B, and indeed I never get a B. And when I go find the lecturer, the lecturer was like bo hiu one. Its like you get that than you deserve it. Its not the matter of deserve or not. I put so much effort in the subject. I do extra research on the net and I even used English to answer her paper. But all the effort goes down the drain. Sometimes I wonder is this world still fair. I mean the world must go according to the Yinyang concept. I believe in that. But what I get is not really fair. I really did my best so can't I get what I deserve? If that is what the lecturer wants, then I have speak no more. If that is the Heaven wants, then I will accept it. What really pissed me off, is the fact that some people who finds her and get good grade. I may have this stereotype thinking of that but if that is the real deal, then this is the most unfair thing I ever see. Maybe they really did perfect in the paper or whatsoever. I accept that they are better. But in any coincidence that it was that that happened, then this world is no more fair. In fact, the world is never fair. What I have learnt from this world, the world itself is never fair. Never. This keeps me mourning the the whole yesterday. This is what I do if I get something like that. Mourning and grumbling and keep the silly sad face. Then later days one, I met another even blood vomiting person. She was so demanding. Damn. I mean you cannot be so demanding. Damn. If you sounds demanding, people may get offended. Damn. Demanding and show offing type of people are those who deserve the worst. Inconsiderate some more. She never thinks of others, and keep the best to herself. Never wanted to back a step and let people the chance. Never wanted to sacrifice herself for others. I tell all the people in this world, once you sacrifice something for someone, it is the most noble thing to do. People respect and remembers you. In the end of the day, I was just being dramatic and self conscious. I may say all this but I may too don't meant it. But it is the concept that I will hold for a long time. Khin Hooi

Taxation 1 final

2008-11-17T09:43:00.000-08:00

hmmn... the 4th paper in da final exam~ taxation 1 ady over jor~ b4 the day i just sleep for 3 hours nia~ cant sleep ler... the exam at 9am @ dewan besar... but seems i'm not dat nervous as previous paper xspecially I.A 2~ the sub i'm most worried about~ but its over finally!!! hehe... c the question 4 .. haiz... not sure the items i post into the right sub-title bo... lol... but at last we done it in time ... not bad ler~ after dat me n sm went 2 pudu bought the ticket going bek de... yeah~ i can go bek in 5 days lo... so siok!!!

New Template

2008-11-12T22:34:00.001-08:00

Yeah, shewern got a new template, so do I. Come and see ba, hahahaha.

1st paper finish jor~

2008-11-09T08:48:00.000-08:00

At last.... the day i'm waiting reach jor~ the 1st paper for 5th sem final.. operating management!!! lol.... early morning wake up liao also cant study jor~ waiting time pass only... 2.30 at dewan besar utm.... who noes sudd raining heavily ... haiz... everytime when final exam sure will rain de, like gt sumthing x gud nia... suak lo... after get into the hall... c the question paper... omg, wana vomit jor~ the fuck kai mang!!! wat she told us all din't included.... haiz... just do la... but the part i tot the most difficult i done it correctly, hoho... felt happy lo.... then 3 of us goin 2 jusco 4 dinner. Again, no fast food... so jt hv johnny as dinner... one thing that me n elaine wont miss when go 2 jusco... our beloved big apple... hahha... she bought 2 n so do i. so delicious~~~ ngek ngek ngek.... yummy2.... lol... then when on9 jt nw saw sumthing dat he sent 2 me.... so sweet... so touch.. hehehe.... glad 2 noe him.... kh change the layout 4 da blog... so sweet de blue~ enjoy!

Rich Color Tutorial Photoshop Action

2008-11-06T00:42:00.001-08:00

Here is the action you can download. Load the action into your action palette.

Then click on the rich color action (not the folder) and press the play button.

Rich Color Photoshop Action at MediaFire
Rich Color Photoshop Action at DeviantArt

Khin Hooi

Rich Color Tutorial PSD Links

2008-11-06T00:08:00.000-08:00

The links are arranged according to the full image

Tree

Cameron Highland Tree Farm 2

Cameron Highland Tree Farm 3

Lake Park

Lamp and Plant

Flamingos

Paddy Field

Rojak

Night at Strawberry Park

Red Leaves

Khin Hooi

Rich Color Tutorial Full Images

2008-11-05T14:26:00.000-08:00

Tree by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Tea Farm at Cameron Highland 2 by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Tea Farm at Cameron Highland 3 by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Lake Park by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Lamp and Plants by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Flamingo by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Paddy Field by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Rojak by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Night at Strawberry Park by ~temporary40 on deviant ART

Exhausted

2008-11-04T09:54:00.000-08:00

today i'm not in da mood 2 do all the things... duno y..... headache la, tired la, tis la, dat la, bla bla bla..... maybe its the best excuse kua... my beloved s.k.i(sistem kewangan islam) arr, y the para ulama got so many perselisihan faham? if no perselisihan hor, then i no need study ski d lor.... haiz.... hungry tim.... too early 4 breakfast, n too late 4 supper... hahaha... earlier noe dat today i'm x going 2 attn the stupid audit class la, haiz.... no tips given by en red... haiz... review bek my final schedule 1st...

9/11 operating management--
13/11 s.k.i --
15/11 intermediate accounting 2--
17/11 taxation 1--
20/11 audit--

exhausted !!!!!

btw, we start 2 plan whr we wan 2 go after final liao, by she wern, elaine n siok min
1st~ california kitchen --klcc
2nd~ chili's
3rd~ mahentan fish market
4th~ erm... mid valley or 1U any restaurant

wow.... cha bo ar cha bo....

final x start yet de ar~

maybe for us, dats the way 2 reduce stress kua... haiz, again....

study week

2008-11-03T09:05:00.000-08:00

Again !!!! the week i hate the most in da semester-- study week.... but our final schedule seems x dat pack jor compare 2 few sem ago.... hoho, study week huh? got study meh? ady spent 1 week at home watching dvd, playing v naughty bb, online, lepaking... still gt time 2 study meh ? lol..... bt one thing i cant 4get is my ah-b call me, e-e d... lol.... so touch..... fell like dun wan cum bek k2 only, tan she wern ar tan she wern.... wake up lo.... huhuhu... haiz... 2molo morning hv 2 go 4 da stupid audit class, haiz... 6 more days 2 go b4 my 1st exam, operating management, c liao the coursework also wana fainted jor lo.... haiz.... 5 5 reach 20th la.... very stress ar~ i cant stand the moment while studying those fedup sub, such as intermediate Accounting 2.... wat 2 do ler? v r student ma.... fXXk!!! hmmnn.... damn geram 2 those ppl who like 2 c ppl's result in aims web, i dun understand y the system cn be so...... jt need the ppl ic then can log in n c ppl's result jor, i was reali dun like caz tas very very p n c stuff, sumore c liao go tell ppl wat u get la, compare la, tis la, dat la,,, bla bla bla..... arrhhhhh!!! very stress arr, i'm not comparing to them, but cant b also. haha.... y chinese like to compare huh? will be b better? i dun think so..... tired ar.... feel like ponteng 2molo audit class nia... haiz... 1.30 am.... my rm sleep jor, lights r off, feel lonely pula... haha....

A day after mk

2008-10-25T11:43:00.000-07:00

hohoho.... its my 1st time posting a blog. hmmnn.... maybe sumone influence me 2 do so... well, just assume its a diary n can xpress all da feeling dats happy n unhappy. Sounds weird actually... mk nite is finally over, i'm proud of them, its truth. from 1st year, we never participate in any pmb activities. But now, almost all of us frm ddw are participate it. haha, maybe its the time dat we really need 2 help 4 sumthing. it was finally a good show. i'm proud of them, its truth. 2day ady slp 4 da whole day, watching tvb drama"jia hao yue yuan" wow.... the story damn touched. thr r 40 episods i think.... i ady cryed for 20 times jor. its really touched...... nw its ady 3.31 am lo, i dunno y i'm not feeling titred. haha... i will going bek 2 taiping on monday lo.... so miss my sis daughter... my beloved a-bi.... hehehe. home sweet home***